IF

Written by Mabuchi Nyirenda

If I walked out of your life now
would you run after me?
Would you kiss me like it’s the first time?
Would you hold me forever until the stars disappear,
And the moon bleeds out into the oceans?
Or
Would you run back to him?
The one who tore your heart up and fed you to the dogs.
With his icy dark eyes
And mouth full of white lies.


If I was to stay here in this moment with you would you throw it all away for us?
Would you fall into the void of nothingness
to spend time with me until we wither to dust in the darkness?
Or
Would you leave me alone in this emptiness?

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What if

What if we were real?

Will we stay in this moment forever?

Will you still love me? 

Will you miss me like the stars miss the moon when the morning sky breaks?

Or will we become strangers?

Only connected by our memories? 

What if I kissed you?

Will we survive one night?

Will you throw it all away?

Run away with me to the end of the world,

Just so we could be alone?

What if I was to run to you?

Will you accept me with all my pain?

Will you still love me?

Or will you shut your heart from me?

Or Will you break me from the inside with your words of killing intent?

“Beautiful”

She wakes up everyday

Goes to the mirror

Looks at herself with sad pity eyes

And asks Am I beautiful?

But no answer is given.

She gets ready for the day,

She puts on an invincible mask

To hide her face from the world

For she doesn’t fit in with the meaning

Of beauty the world has.

Throwing herself at every man

She finds, hoping they can unmask her

But they just use – play – ignore her

She falls deeper into depression 

She turns to drugs to find happiness

She numbs and overloads her body

Feels a sense of pleasure with happiness.

Days – weeks – months go by

She suffers and drowns in her own misery

Losing the fight to live on, she

Ends it all and thinks maybe in the

After life I will be blessed with beauty

And be able to fit in with the world.

-Buchi-

“COULD HAVE”

She could have stayed,
He could have loved her,
She could have thrown it all away for him,
They could have lived,
They could have made it,
They could have loved each other
But that’s just it,
They never happened,
She never stayed,
He never loved her,
They never made it,
They never lived.

-Buchi-

Alone.

She stays up at night because
She is afraid of falling asleep for
She doesn’t want to become the
Play-toy of her demons but she can’t fight it anymore each night
She becomes a step closer to meeting her maker. She cries out
For help but her cries fall on deaf ears
For the heroes have all been swallowed up by the fires and now she is all alone fighting her demons,  she lives in agony her eyes spill out blood from all the crying,
Her soul leaves her looking for another.
Her mind breaks and madness takes control,  she becomes a mindless corpse living in torment
Just waiting until her time ends and she becomes dust and this pain is no more.

-Buchi-

Nothing

I am nothing without her
I wander into the void
Looking for her but
I find nothing but the dark
This places traps me inside
In my own past
Flooding my head with
Pictures of her
I am driven to madness
My body is motionless
I become a statue
Stuck in the darkness
Until I became nothing
But an empty shell

-Buchi-